Understanding We Are All Different

Do you ever wonder what if? Wonder why you spent your time and effort on people, wonder why you opened yourself up to them, wonder why they just walked out of you life? Truth is you will probably never find out the reason why, wondering about what if just fries your brain..

I have come to terms with the fact that everyone is different, I'm not talking about physically.. I'm talking about mentally. We all think and feel completely different, someone may think you've been offensive and completely out of order where as you were just being honest and telling them how you felt. It is hard to understand why people say and do certain things that you would not dare think twice about doing.

In my teenage years it frustrated me so much, I cried, got angry and fell out with so many people because I just couldnt understand what was going through there minds.

Truth is I dont feel you can trust, people change, life changes, change happens everyday and promises become broken, I love you turns into I hate you, I miss you turns into I never want to see you again and happy turns into sad.. I'm sure you understand what point I am trying to make. All I ever want from people is honesty, I dont want promises and fancy gifts, I just want their honesty. It's hard for me to let people in, I have been let down so many times that I just have gotten tired of it, it's hard to believe people when your head has been filled with so much bullsh*t.

Theirs one thing trying to understand someones words, and another trying to understand their actions. People can spend months and years in your life.. Spending time with you, chatting to you everyday, telling you how they feel, planning a future and the next day it's as if you never existed.. You dont hear from them, you text they dont reply, you call they dont pick up and thats it you dont see them again.. No reason, no answers they've just flashed right infront of you with no warning. And that is one thing that breaks me more than anything and that is something I still have not come to terms with or managed to understand.

We never really know what the other person is going through, how they feel or what they are thinking and we have to accept that we aren't ever going to. It's hard, but we are all different. Just be careful with your heart, who you trust and who you give your time, love and effort to. We are all going to be hurt at some point in our lives and we just have to pick ourselves back up again, its not easy but it's part of life, its all part of your journey. The people who have hurt me in the past have all changed me in different ways, both negative and positive, but it has shaped me into the person who I am today.

Expect the unexpected, live in the moment and cherish the memories.