To My Younger Self

So, looking back to my younger self gives me so many mixed emotions and memories. I don't ever want to say I had a bad childhood because I didn't, I just went through a lot growing up and I have experienced a lot for someone of my age. I went through emotionally challenging times, dealing with grief, seperation, confidence issues and bullying. I never go into full detail about events I've been through in my life because 1) They are personal to me and bring back a lot of emotions that I dont always want to relive 2) I was not the only person ever involved so I have to be respectful of other people 3) I can guide people from my experiences without having to go into detail.

I wouldn't change anything from my past although if I could have given myself some damn good advice back then I would of done.. But I can make up for it now.

1) Be aware |

Of your 'friends', 'partners' and the people you surround yourself with.

Growing up I made the mistake of trusting everyone and I allowed myself to be hurt by doing this, so just be aware of things people say or do, you will soon work out who your true friends are.

2) Dont worry about the little things |

The amont of friends you have a irrelevant ( quality over quantity ) Dont be pushed into doing things you dont want to do, go at your own pace. Most things will happen when they are ready to.

3) Ignore comments |

The school playground is a place for gossip and bullying, so really you can't avoid it, as hard as it may seem try to ignore comments people make about you. At some point you may experience bullying and you are not alone. Speak to someone if it is upsetting but dont ever rise to it. You are a beautiful person and do not deserve it!

4) Be happy, you are only young once |

Dont stress about silly things, I was always having arguments with 'friends', worrying over my results in exams. Just be happy, your young and you have to make the most of your life while you can. As long as you tried your best then that is all that matters.

5) Fitting in doesn't exist |

You can spend all your time in school trying to fit into groups, to sit with the cool kids, or have lunch with the popular girl in your year but at the end of the day you are you and if someone doesnt accept you for the person you are then that is there loss. Find your self, find your style and the right people will come to you.

This would have been the advice I'd of given to my younger self. Don't get me wrong this guidance can still be applied to myself now at the age of twenty, but I feel growing up these pointers would have helped me a lot. I have so many unforgettable memories, true friends, and experiences from school so for that I am greatful.

"No matter where you are or where you grow up, you always go through the same awkward moments of being a teenager and growing up and trying to figure out who you are."